
I happened upon my first daffodil sighting of the year yesterday š¼
Spring is in the air! š„³
The snowdrops and crocuses have been around for a couple of weeks now, but I wasnāt expecting a daffodil for a while yet. It seems the mild winter has caused spring to arrive early this year. Happy days! āļø
Iām feeling incredibly lucky right now. Iām so utterly grateful for my life and the people in it.
Iāve started microdosing amanita muscaria, or fly agaric as they are also known – the red and white mushroom that most people think is really poisonous š
Mushrooms are incredible things with tremendous healing properties that can help with lots of conditions. You have to know what youāre doing with them, and they have to be prepared and treated properly, but my brother Pog, who lives in Finland has a forest where lots of amanita grow, and he makes both a sleep tincture from them, which cured his insomnia, and he dries them out and makes capsules out of them, which work as a natural antidepressant. My friend and I agreed to be Guinea pigs for him. Within a week I noticed I felt more motivated, and very upbeat. My friend noticed a difference within a day, she had been in a slump for over a year, struggling to motivate herself to do anything except go to work and then go home and climb into bed, but she is now walking with me and my dogs and reorganising her flat.
Nature really does provide everything we need!

Iāve used antidepressants in the past, I was on an incredibly high dose when I had my awakening, and stopped taking them very suddenly, (which I donāt advise anyone to do as I barely slept for a month), but if antidepressants like these were available to people, there would be no need to toxic antidepressants that are incredibly difficult to come off, actually make people suicidal and donāt work in the long term.
The old system is so utterly broken.
Iāve been trying to buy more fenbendazole and ivermectin, which are the two most important elements in my treatment, both horse worming medications, but the online companies are now asking for a prescription from a vet. These cheap and safe drugs are being deliberately censored so that people cannot buy them to treat their cancer.
Why?
Because they work, but theyāre old drugs that canāt be patented, which means the pharmaceutical companies canāt profit from them.
Itās outrageous š¤
I want to live in a world where the medical profession donāt profit from peopleās suffering. In a world where people are not living their lives in fear, and instead are encouraged to follow their dreams..

from Winnie the Pooh
Since I had my awakening I have felt utterly fearless. Itās the most liberating feeling Iāve ever known. I feel a deep seated knowing that thereās no such thing as getting it wrong. As long as we donāt go out to intentionally hurt anyone, no matter what a mess we make of things, itās all learning. And thatās why we are here, to learn things. I believe we are eternal souls, and choose to come to this material realm to have experiences and to learn things. I believe we have lots of lives, and itās inevitable we will get things wrong, but it doesnāt matter. Making mistakes is the best way to learn.
Life begins at the end of our comfort zone.
Do something that scares you today. Even if that means simply speaking your truth ā¤ļø
With love, from my heart to yours š„°
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